My inbox didn't know what had hit it. And that was just in the first few days.
Maybe I'm more naive than I thought, but I had no idea that posting a message of support on her blog would provoke such an unpleasant response.
It was the vitriol of the messages that took me aback.
And in a very small way I got a taste of what she must have been on the receiving end of for the last two and a half years.
There were notes from people saying things that for the sake of decency can't be repeated here. Then there were anonymous e-mails from people who felt the need to tell me things about her they thought I should know that she was apparently keeping secret.
And they were just from people in "the family of faith".
I won't even bother with the e-mails or messages from people I can only assume still work in her former industry who do not like the stand she is making.
All of us did things in our lives prior to turning to Christ that are a source of regret and shame- Bono put it far better than I could when he said "If you saw my heart you would spit in my face," but most of us hope that as we walk with him we can leave them behind.
So imagine what it must be like for Crissy Moran, the former porn star who gave her life back to Christ in November 2006. I hadn't heard of her until I read an
interview with her in Christianity Today. Her's is an incredible story of grace, of the mercy of God.
On the one hand I'm sure (if my e-mail inbox is anything to go by) that there are people in her former industry who continue to be deeply unhappy about her conversion and her detailing the reality of the sex industry, and on the other are people who feel the need to rub her face in her past. On one side are people who use it as a weapon against her and on the other people who use it to condemn her.
I hugely admire the courage it must take her not to hide her past. To confront what she was involved in and be honest about it. To deal with the fact that her past is accessible to anyone who wants to find it. To let God use her story to reach other women trapped in that world.
In a world where people constantly want to airbrush out the parts of their lives that they would rather forget, her willingness to be real, to use her experience as a testimony of the God who came to seek and save those who are lost, who loves us so much that he gave his son for us, inspires me.
There are times when If I'm honest I can feel reluctant to share my faith with people. Her stand has challenged me to be more courageous.
And this time my inbox is ready.
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